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IT WAS AN MC-ACCIDENT WHICH

CHANGED MY REBELLIOUS LIFE.

I am born 1960 in Finland. The rebellion began when my parents divorced – i was then thirteen years old.

I came to Sweden 21 years old. I came in touch with bikers and was about with to start an Mc-clubb in southern Stockholm. My Harley-Davidson was not a hobby but a way to live. And with it came a lifestyle of lawlesness, violence and drugs.

A Mc-Accident 1985 brought me to the gate of death.En mc-olycka 1985 förde mig till dödens port.

The only thing i remember is that i lay on a strecther rolling down the hospital. I hear a voice: ”We're taking you to a filmshow with you as head role. It's a film about your own life”. - ”I don't want to see that crap movie” i replied.

I realised i had reached the end-station of my life and was in opposite of my wil traveling to another world. I began to travel down into a great darkness. But i could think clearly, make conclusions, and wonder where i was going.

I felt the same pressure in the ears as when as a boy followed dad down in an elevator into a cave mine.

Finally i was down. I took a few steps. A bit forward i saw a tunnelopening and from it's end came a strong light. I became agressiv. Did someone want to play games with me? I wouldn't accept that. I Shouted loud: ”What is this kind of place!? Why have i come down here!? Who is in charge here? I have the right to know. I demand an answer now!!”

A voice answered: ”You deserve to be here”.

I didn not think that was an answer, repeated the question.

Then i heard ”You have reached Hades. There is no way out of here. Nu you are going through the tunnel. On the Other side you will be held responsible for your doings, what you have done and not done.”

But i did not want to take orders from an unknown. I challenged the voice ”Come over here where i can see you. We will see, who will go through the tunnel wether it will be me or you!”

”It doesn't matter what you say. You will go through the tunner anyway”, was the answer.

A strong vaccum airwind started to get hold of me. It didn't help fighting. The closer i got to the tunner, the more unbearable. I was thinking feeverishly of a way to escape.

At the same time i had accusations about my environment Why had no one warned me? I suddenly understod that i would be eternally lost on the other side of the tunnel. In the Tunnelmouth i fell down on my knees and called ”Gud if you're real, help me now. I don't want to die this young! If you help me i will change!”.

I promised God to stop fighting doing drugs and drinking … but not to leave the HD which had taken God's place as the most important in my life.

The suction from the tunnol decreased. I was still on my knees, until i had taken all my wovs. But suddenly sucted into the tunnel. Agonizing, hurting voices came from the other side. ”Juha do not come inhere you will never get out of here!”

Then i called in panic ”Okey God, i will leave the motercycle too. Cost whatever it wants!”

I did not then know that it's written in the Bible: ”Call to me when you're in need, i will save you, and you will honor me” (Ps 50:15)

But i got to experience it – in my lifeless body, and the gate of hades.

When i had let go of my idol, the darkness and the tunnel dissappeared. I was traveling upwards again. I felt someones prescence and shouted” I Know there is someone here. I can feel that. Who are you then?” then i received the answer: ”I am The Lord, your God.

The Son has prayed for you that you would not become eternally lost. (John 17:9) Everything that The Son asks me of i give him, because i love The Son. You can go back to life and tell your friends and other people about The Son and of your experiences in Hades, so that no one will end up there because he didn't know.”

I woke up at the hospital two weeks after the accident without remembering that his happened. A doctor told me i had been clinically dead for a moment.

I did not remember then the experience in the underworld. I did not became saved even at once. I had three hard years, fighting the consequences of the accident. I wanted to get my mc in function and ”get back on the highway”.

But it became to expensive to stay in the club when the guys moved to more expensive places. I asked them to drive hom the HD. It became standing in the apartment, where i became more and more isolated. I managed to quit doing drugs, but after visiting fortunetellers/ futuretellers i was haunted by ”poltergeistfenomenom”. Parts of the motorcycle laying in boxes of cartong all over my apartment started to move by themselves. All food i ate in the apartment tasted blood. Finally i wanted to kill my self.

But before that i wanted to do a good deed. I gathered up alot of clothes and left them in a church where two people were left after a prayer meeting. Before i knew it, i had told about my life and they were praying for me. They also gave me a little noteclip called ”The Meaning” and i decided to read it before the suicide.

There i read about the Forgiveness of sins and about being born again. (John 3:3) i thought ”Is it this simple as it says here, then it's possible for me too”. Long before i reached the prayer of salvation in the end of the noteclip, i confessed that i believed and wanted to receive the offer. Gods power came over me, and i started shaking and both crying and laughing. All the inner hardness, bitterness and anxiety dissappeared, and i had peace.

First a half year later the memory of the experience at the gates of Hades came back – slow. Since then i have often told about it. Many do not believe me, but the believing understand, and many non christians become fascinated and touched.

Afterwards i've thought that i at the gates of Hell where going to be more responsible for the things i have not done that for the evil i've done. Because i had not accepted God's offer of salvation in Jesus Christ. Dear reader, realise you too that the Bible speaks the truth: ”So God loved the World: He gave his only Son, so that those who believe in Him will not perish but have everlasting life.” (the (the gospel of John 3:16)

believe in Jesus' words: ”I tell you the truth: the one who hears my word (rhema, utterance, ) and believes him who sent me has everlasting life. He will not fall under judgement but has crossed over from death into life” (John's gospel 5: 24) Christ has died for you. It says in the Scripture: ”...For as it is that man shall die once and then be judged, so has Christ once been offered to lift of the sins of many ...” (Hebrews 9:27-28).

/ Juha Mattisson

Efteråt har tänkt på att jag vid Hades portar blev ställd till svar mer för vad jag inte gjort än för

/ Juha Mattisson